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trojan

from the roof top~somewhere in silence[sniper’s theme]

i’m still itching for creating some kind of a game, i had last year a will to create something akin to LSD: Dream Simulator, but top-down and showcasing my dreams instead.

a common thing brought up in my dreams would be trains and subways, so they would be in the middle of the game i thought about, connecting everything. you’d start there, and if you wanted to randomly go to another “dream” you would just go back there and take a train. sometimes it could interrupt and a random event would happen during the train ride, or that was the thought at least.

i never came too far with that game idea, mostly because of i wasn’t sure how the random generation of “dream maps” would work out… it’s always the little things that just kill all progress and will for me.

i’ve always thought that if i could work together with someone else i would have enough incentive to work… don’t really have the will to work on my own without a deadline and what not. as soon as i meet an obstacle, i’d turn right around and give up. it sucks.

Teeth-O-Meter

in any case, i’ve had these spurs of need to create something big, multiple times and i’ve yet to actually to anything in the wake of these needs

i had another one just recently, but much smaller in scope. i thought that everything would be easier if i got GameMaker Studio 2, but that piece of shit costs like $80, and if i want to compile to HTMLwhatever so i can upload it on NewGrounds, that would be over a $100 bucks more and that’s just insane. so i cracked it.

i like to think that i’m a pretty smart dude, i’m pretty good and clean on the internet. i know what’s sketchy and not, and i don’t download mp3- and mkv-files ending with a .exe…….. yet i might’ve “”accidentally”” downloaded a trojan now >:)), or at least if i can trust Windows Defender. the crack works, let me just tell you that, and it seems it is pretty well-rated on the sketchy-ass forum i downloaded it from… and the author of the crack sounds veeerryyyyy reassuring when he says “it’s not a virus, just a false positive guys!”. yeah… i still got almost a heart attack. i’m so stupid.

anyway… this piece of shit software wasn’t even worth it. i am pretty sure i could do much the same thing in the old GameMaker Studio 1.4 anyway and i own that LEGALLY. another pseudo mind-obstacle that will make me turn around and walk straight the way back home

whatever, peace out fool

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teeth dream

No peroxide, I stay dark

i’ve been fairly interested in dreams, mostly the common objects, themes, and elements that show up throughout mine. this fascination has gone so far that i have even kept a physical record of some of the dreams in a small book, not much bigger than a credit card in width and height. i mostly got this idea from the creator of the strange game lsd dream emulator (PS1)

In Linking the Sapient Dream

if i recall this game correctly, the routes and events that happen in-game are not random but are decided upon what objects you touch, the dreams and locations are in this way Linked. everything that happens in-game are inspired or directly taken from dreams the creator had noted down. he kept a Dream Dairy, as apparently that would lead to dreams become clearer and easier to remember (we’ve all been there, waking up and not remembering the upsetting dream we had moments ago) and possibly even trigger more interesting and perhaps lucid dreams. this was something that interested myself as well. i do believe writing them down and thinking about them will subconsciously create far more interesting and convoluted dreams, it seems only logical.

so i kept a dream diary, and i even noted down some older dreams i vividly could recall from earlier. one of them is the infamous teeth dream, a dream which seems to be very common. some people only have their teeth falling off, i’ve had far worse. crushing teeth by clenching my jaw, furiously bleeding from the mouth. the teeth seem to often come up in stressful moments of my life, similarly to others.

i might post some other dreams i’ve had later down the line.