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## point, line, split, fold is a point, line, split, fold is…..

I had to bust open Paint.NET for this one

Pikachu + Violence

there’s this simple recursion you can do to draw higher dimensional cubes on paper, and it also roughly explains what mathematical dimensions are as well.

you start with a dot. 0d dots are infinitely small, they have no width or height. it’s just a dot. copy it and draw a line between the copied point and it’s original. that’s a line

here’s the thing about lines in maths, they are pretty much infinitely long (like the real number line). we want to draw a square so we don’t really care about that. anyway, this line consists of an infinite amount of points! just like there’s an infinite amount of real numbers between 0 and 1. very cool! take this line, and make a copy of it. now draw a line between every copied point and it’s original. voila a square.

it looks like a kid drew it but i don’t really fucking care enough.

just like with the line we could see this square like an infinite amount of lines, yeah. it’s 2d. it’s a plane, with an infinite amount of lines consisting of an infinite amount of points. all of these points coordinates on this plane could be described with two values. this is simple fking maths. let’s make a copy of it and draw the lines between the points.

yeah i’m getting kinda bored of explaining these… infinite amount of planes, lines and points inside of it…. it’s 3d……… make a copy of it and draw the lines again…

and hey presto, holy shit it’s 4d, a TESSARACT….. an infinite amount of cubes inside this sonovagun. anyway you can continue doing this shit and you get 5d…. 6d… and so on but it’s like not very useful, just look at the 5d hybercube

yeah it looks like shit
<——

what the fuck ever, this is a pretty simple recursion thing. most likely every single nerd knows about this, but i think it’s pretty fun anyway. but here’s another way you could imagine this shit (if you like string theory and physics)

it’s pretty similar to the last method of drawing higher dimensional structures, but it’s a bit more complex !

we still start with the 0d point, and then we have the 1d line. yep. but instead of copying it again, we imagine the line splitting (an infinite amount of times) into 2d. that’s our 2d plane. now, imagine you being able to travel between different splits, by folding into 3d space…. yeah we’re in 3d. point->line->split->fold. string theorists don’t believe in 4d spatial dimensions, so the next dimension is time.

you could see the 3d cube as a timeless snapshot of our universe. just like an animation, if you have several snapshots of these 3d cubes, you could make motion appear. it becomes an infinitely small point on a TIME LINE………. we ‘cast(Point) Fold’ and then -> line on this. so we have a single timeline that goes from the start of the universe to the end of it. the start is constant, but there could be several ends to our universe! there are actually an infinite amount of different timelines, and they could be seen as an infinite amount of splits. whenever a decision is taken, the chosen option becomes a timeline while the other option becomes a seperate timeline. it’s like a tree-graph.

well, this is 5d. how do we move from a 5d timeline to a completely seperate 5d timeline, without having to move back to a point where the two diverge from? we fold through 6d time mf.

## so 6d is all possible timelines diverging from the start of the universe. we can, similar to the 3d cube, see this as a point on a line, where the line consists of an infinite amount of 6d universes, but with different starting conditions. jesus! this is the 7th dimensional universe-line…. now apparently there’s also 8th and 9th dimensions, where 8 is like “well there’s not enough dimensions for all possible starting conditions, moving in 1 direction is like only changing 1 value, so wee need one more”. 8d is a universe split, and 9d is the universe fold. now here’s an extra jump, 10d is the 9d fold but a point. in the last parts we said that 3d and 6d were folds but also points in 4d and 7d. but yeah 9d isn’t really a point apparently, 10d is the point.

that’s 10 dimensionals in some pseudo-scientific-philosophical-logical way. don’t ask we why 4 spatial dimensions are possible, it just isn’t!!! w

i learned this shit from this youtube videos. very interesting to think about, not very useful but cool.

anyway, piss off.

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## caroline soul

Fy fan, va coolt.
Jag vill också vara jaspilot.

on youtube there is an infamous series of crudely drawn barebones cartoon, expressing an extensive and raw view of the swedish city malmö. this series of videos is created by Henrik Möller, who is a 0 budget-moviemaker. that is, he makes movies with little to no budget.

these movies are crude, and mostly pretty childish. but they all weave together some sort of malmö mythology. you have the kebab photographer, the executioner from teckomatorp, the fighting dog trainer “The Master”, the dimor king who drug himself with prescription-less opium. the list goes on and on.

the completely perfect malmö dialect and insane and vulgar script leads to many quotable lines, every new upload brings great enjoyment.

alongside these videos, there are a couple of live-action low-budget short movies (exploring similar themes and characters), but also some more deeper and less childish cartoons. the most famous one being “The Anxiety Dog” (ångesthunden). today i want to talk about another one of these videos, and the band Caroline Soul.

kaninhoran is a 2006 short and melancholy cartoon about a rabbit committing suicide, but when she finally does so death let her have a final moment of joy.

during the finale of the you-tube clip, a certain song plays. When You Do It by Caroline Soul.

this song caught my heart, and i became a bit obsessed. i wanted to find more of this band, but there was almost nothing online. there existed a bandcamp, but no payments could be made. i had to do with low-quality mp3 bandcamp downloader… there was also a single released on 7 inch vinyl, something i bought (even though i don’t own a vinyl player).

here’s the album in any case… I made a promise I would shape up.

i have the name of the band figure head, and i’m thinking about contacting him and see if there’s any way to get a higher quality version of the album. i’d pay for it.

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## books: \$4000 dollars

Dear Kevin:
hemma hos dej skulle du
kunna ta me dej den imorgon
till skolan e du go
Yours truly–

a continuation of the last post. as i’ve mentioned before i’ve been reading quite a lot lately, so i just want to go through some of ’em quickly. i enjoyed pretty much all of them, a lot of classics and you can never go wrong with classics

these are just some of the books i’ve read, there’s more of course but i don’t have the energy to write more than this

## Animal Farm

a mistake i made in grade school while reading this book was thinking that it was about communism being an inherently bad system. i am pretty sure george orwell himself was an ” ‘ol communist “, as we like to call ’em in sweden. it is more so single-handedly about soviet, and in particular STALIN.

still a swell fable, it’s very simple but i think that helps to portray it’s meaning, even if it as deep as a puddle. i give it 5/7 animal commandments. I enjoyed the afterwords, describing how some publishers didn’t even want to print it, as they were afraid of backlash from russia by being discriminatory. similar subject is brought up in Shaun Walker’s “The Long Hangover: Putin’s New Russia and the Ghosts of the Past”, and also in political events surrounding china today……… you know what i mean (i’m a big ol’ racist).

i highly suggest listening to the pink floyd album “ANIMALS”. it is a good companion piece.

## Fight Club 3

this one was a doozy. i’ve read a couple of graphical novels, but not a whole lot. they cost a lot and they’re pretty easy to go through. fight club 3 is an entire volume of several releases, but it only took me about an hour to get through it. it was still enjoyable (and sometimes a bit confusing), but i got through it nonetheless.

it was less 4th wall-breaking than it’s predecessor, which i thought was nice.

it doesn’t feel like a necessary sequel at all so i don’t know. like i said before, quick read. it makes me a tad bit irritated to be honest haha, but that’s on me 🙂

## August Strindberg’s Inferno

i read an article by someone who said this self-biography/diary was an excellent view into symptoms of schizophrenic paranoia. and god, it was good. i would

the first part of the book is from August’s time in paris, trying to alchemize gold in the late 1800rds. Spoilers, he doesn’t, but he sure believes he will. he spends his evenings at different cafes, drinking nerv-damaging Absinthe day in and day out, barely scraping by with the dough he has. very interesting fellow, but he sure is an asshole. he is bit of a H.P Lovecraft-kind of a character, but instead of racist he’s just hates women, and more than unusual for that time.

the second part is less interesting according to me, it goes more into philosophical and theological thinking (Swedenborg and whatnot) to explain his suffering. he finally decides that life is hell, while taking his estranged daughter (that loves him almost unconditionally) for a walk. what a dude.

i’ve bought a shitton of books as well, my budget goes to classics. i haven’t even started reading a 3rd of them, haha. it is nice tho to have a collection and i think i will at some point read them!!!!! physical collections are nice, it feels good having your favorite stuff in a format that isn’t 0s and 1s you know. here’s a short list of some books i’ve bought:

• 20,000 leagues under the sea + Journey to the Center of the Earth
• Ulyssses by james joyce (a bad boy of a book, apparently)
• dante’s inferno and homer’s the illiad. i think that is that the good one? don’t know
• villhelm moberg’s Utvandrarna and Invandrarna. it is the first two books in a trilogy about swedish emigrants who travel to USA during a famine. they are very famous, and the movies are good too apparently.
• new york trilogy, paul aster.
• The Art of War
• and of course MOBY DICK, fuck yeah
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Ascii Chronos

recently joined a book club, haven’t read too much for years but used to be a real bookworm back in school. i like to think that i’m quite a quick reader as well, but yeah, haven’t tried keeping up with reading at all. however, if i find a book that interests me, i read it!

here’s a short summary of books i read a couple of years ago or so. most of them i can recommend

#### Paul Auster’s Moon Palace

post-modern. story about several generations, identity and loops (and breaking the cycle). from what i remember it was pretty good! enjoyed it. shares a bit with House of Leaves with the system of several layers of stories.

#### Anthony Burgess’s A Clockwork Orange

everyone pretty much knows this one. i was mostly interested in it because of watching 2001: a space odyssey by stanley kubrick a metric ton and knowing that he also directed the adaption of this one as well. not only that but also after david bowie’s final album got released, with “girl loves me”…

the song borrows some of its language from the fictional “argot”(no idea if that is what it is called but fuck it) from the book. the language made it a pretty interesting reading, as i got very invested in it while looking up all slang-words used by the main character.

it is a pretty awful work (violence-wise), with the main character raping several people (even minors). the character really is a piece of shit, but it is most likely meant so for the second part. the film is a bit tamer in that respect, but it is still very aesthetically pleasing!

#### Mark Z. Danielewski’s House of Leaves

this one is good (and a beast of a book!!!)! very postmodern, starts playing with the medium a lot, sometimes is looks like someone went batshit with microsoft word haha. several layers of storytelling, you have a supposedly “”real”” story about an impossible corridor, written by a dead blind man as a scientific article, while an insane editor goes bananas in the margins and footnotes of the book. it is a cultic piece, but widely appraised from what i’ve seen. recommend it a lot! dripping with themes!!!

#### Kafka’s The Trial (should be called The Process)

didn’t actually finish this one, should’ve read it in english but i had the swedish version. the description of the bureaucratic systems and even the surroundings of the book makes me feverish! it was interesting nonetheless, but i felt lost in the details while reading it.

#### Fight Club 2

yeah, this one was a graphical novel. don’t ask why it had a sequel (i think they even discuss it towards the end in a sort of meta-commentary (fucking post-modernists)). it was still a good read. wasn’t the only cartoon comic for adults i read, as i also went through the entire Watchmen alongside the Scott Pilgrim-series. if you want an account about the holocaust, Maus is still a pretty good piece. (just checked, apparently there is a fight club 3???)

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## doomsday

all caps when you spell the man’s name

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## suburban war

This wall is not for the communicative!

And why color shift?

there’s a lot to take in here about my experiences with The Suburbs by Arcade Fire. i think you’d call it a synchronous artwork, as there were many different projects surrounding the album. i’m gonna briefly write about two of these, alongside the album itself, then i might discuss some of the existential horror i feel about suburbs.

i actually borrowed this album from the local library in Kävlinge, and i got pretty obsessed with it. it was so different from anything i had listened to before (swedish pop and the beatles), i really enjoyed it.

The Suburbs is the first concept album i might’ve ever listened to, or at least the first concept album that made a big enough impression on ~10 year old me to still linger after almost a decade. it’s one of my favorite albums, and while that is mostly because of nostalgic bias i think it’s still warranted. everything is subjective, but i would like to think there is some objective truth to it being an honest to god excellent album.

just the title track alone is a great expression of the teenage interpretation of the american life in a suburb. the modern millennial living in the american dream is further explored in other tracks, such as “Modern Man” and “City with No Children” (which are both excellent tracks), but i would like to focus on titles such as the title track below, “Suburban War”, and “Wasted Hours” when i discuss the suburban horror

the wilderness downtown was one of the first ones i really remember, it was actually it that brought me into arcade fire and the suburbs with it’s accompanying music track “We Used to Wait”.

i mentioned before how i enjoyed internet experiences a lot, that’s what internet should be about. that’s what you did in school when you were bored, just adventuring and browsing an almost indefinite amount of small interactive worlds.

it might just be the communist inside me who’s talking. can’t really put to words how i feel about how commercialized the internet has become.

a short movie, featuring music from “The Suburbs”

early millennials are very much influenced by the cold war and the economic disasters that struck them during their adulthood, i think it’s very much why they are like they are today (broken and annoying)

this movie has some very interesting scenes, i think the entirety of The Suburbs experience is played out in some alternative history world where-in the cold war actually broke out into full-on war. this would explain much of the background shit that happens in this short film, as well as many of the recurring motifs in The Suburbs (war, bombs and the like). it is also possible that those are just metaphors to broken friendships, while the movie just takes it a bit more literal. i still find it fascinating, and it’s an interesting supplement to the album.

there is one tumblr post i saw a couple of years back that summarize the feelings i have about suburbs. it explains very much the nihilistic viewpoint i have about it in the form of a short slice of life story.

nothing in suburbs feels real, shit like this story happens all the time in a constant cycle and it doesn’t matter at all. some people are born in it, grown up in it and died in it, and their life was in the grander scheme totally meaningless. the suburbs are isolated and empty, draining all life that might exist. all you can do is escape from it, that’s the only way out from it.

the suburbs doesn’t only kill life, it turns life into total mediocrity. you read the text and you realize how average all the characters are, and they seem to not grasp that. it’s what they are comfortable with. these events seem to constantly happen in some suburban families, can you imagine the mental torment it must be to live like this? how do you survive?

i know how bad my wording might sound, after rereading the text i realize that it really seems like i am looking down at these people… that’s not something i want to do. it’s not the people that live in the suburbs that i dislike, it’s the suburbs. it’s the suburbs. it’s the suburbs. it is a place devoid of meaning and life.

i am deadly afraid of my life turning mediocre, i don’t want the suburban life. it’s hard to make a direct comparison between american and swedish suburban living, but sweden is well-known for it’s isolated living. the difference is that the picketed fences that separate gardens and families aren’t physical, they are totally hidden to the eye to the average swede.

###### [21:54] Knose:
it’s suburban psychological horror
owo
###### [21:56] Knose:
[IMAGE]
i hate it so much
i get cold sweats from reading it
anxiety grows in my stomach
###### [21:57] Salvr:
Oh yeah I know that
i feel sick
###### [21:58] Salvr:
its great isn’t it
its vault-tec level
###### [21:58] Knose:
suburban psychological horror, i hate it i hate it i hate it
###### [21:59] Salvr:
honestly tho, fruits bop
###### [21:59] Knose:
it’s not the fun pizza that horrifies me
it’s everything else in the story
the fun pizza is just a sympton of something even more dreadful
the promise of the white suburban family life is a lie
it’s rotten to the core
###### [22:03] Salvr:
ye
american suburbia is a literal hell
###### [22:06] Knose:
i dread it, literally one of my worst fears
###### [22:06] Salvr:
imagine living in a small suburban home surrounded for miles by other completely identical homes all owned by middle class office workers
###### [22:07] Knose:
your wife is neurotic, you are an alcoholic
you both hate each other, but stay because of the kids
the kids are doing ok in school, average grades
AAHHHH
###### [22:08] Salvr:
the neighbors having it a tiny bit better, which is always why every night there is a fight
about how neighbors are going to slightly more prestigious place for a vacation
and you need to one up them in a passive-aggressive way
###### [22:08] Knose:
it’s the mediocrity of it all that breaks me
nothing of it matters
no ups, no downs
###### [22:08] Knose:
it doesn’t matter
###### [22:08] Salvr:
its a life free of consequences
devoid of choice
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## another∞note

Recover Files…

this is a continuation from the post a couple of days ago about the infinite universes. there’s a cool internet experience that i enjoy.

https://libraryofbabel.info/

internet should be filled with things such as these. would you call it an esoteric experience? unsure… i think esoteric is a good word to describe it, but there are probably better. it has a cultist-like kind of a vibe, but is grounded in mathematics (i guess)

more of internet should be like this, like i said.. less trash!!!!

good riddance

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## the suburbs

here be dragons

i’ve long had thoughts about similar infinite maze-like areas or dimensions, similar to a game with auto-generated rooms or the Backrooms meme. ever-shifting corridors or rooms leading you to nowhere.

House of Leaves has a similar concept, where-in there’s an impossible hallway in one of the main characters’ home. the door should leave to the outside, but instead continues forever into deeper and darker corridors and gigantic rooms.

the character becomes obsessed with it, and travels further and further while it progressively breaks his family apart.

i have bad eyesight, and with the early evenings being as dark as they are doesn’t really help while taking walks. usually i head downtown or to the local river while listening to dubiously right-leaning swedish podcasts or music, but there are some suburban areas that i visit sometimes. swedish suburbs (or maybe suburbs in the west) are so typical, always so similar wherever you are. with the darkness, my incredibly bad sense of direction and memory these suburbs become a maze-like phenomenon. you enter one point, wander around and suddenly you exit it and find yourself in a familiar place, but while inside everything looks the same. it doesn’t feel man-made at times, it feels generated, soulless, empty (thanks to not a whole lot of people being outside often). it’s like it’s always been there, but unexplored. here be dragons, uncharted lands.

arcade fire’s the suburbs explain the existential dread i personally fail to describe well. i really despise suburbs, there’s a sort of anxiety that fills me whenever i’m in one of them. emptiness? i will probably discuss the suburbs (the album that is) later.

i like using this blog as some sort of one-sided discussion for myself. it becomes like an obligation for me that forces me to archive my thoughts about some subjects, such as movies or music. i have a fear of losing information, another thing i might bring up later. anyway, i feel like it’s very good, even if it is totally personal and not really for public consumption. writing down my thoughts for myself has a lot of benefits.

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## battle royale | drama

Trim Processes’ Working Set

sometimes the general “asian” dramatization and character reactions was a bit too much for me (i say asian because korean movies do it as well. it’s just general overreactions (characters speaking and moving “loudly”) and similar cliches). it’s still a good cultlike movie, not everyone will like it but that is just how some things are.

`i think the last scene before the credits summarized the movie very well, the last sentence really does a 1-2-KO`

In this moment, what should an adult say to a kid?

you’ve probably already seen it, i hadn’t yet so i thought it would be cool to watch it. BR2 is apparently gonna bring up some 9/11- and american-centrism which is really cool. it’s the whole deal with non-Hollywood movies, to do whatever Hollywood won’t or can’t do and that’s appreciable.

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